In which Kat does some further fangirling and unusually for her talks about feelings
The last six weeks or so has not exactly been easy. Things have happened that have really knocked me and those I care about. At times I've been a horrible mess of anxiety, overthinking, second guessing and worry. I find it much easier to beat myself up than to be kind to myself.
I've had so many ideas for blogs, even written some in my head, but nothing's quite fully formed. I really want to talk about ambivalence, but I think I need to save that for a day when I've got the time and space to think it through.
One highlight in the darkness of the last few weeks was hearing the inspirational Stella Duffy at WORD Christchurch and talking Fun Palaces at breakfast the following day. I had a good old fangirl beforehand and afterwards was left buzzing and overexcited. I haven't yet read all her books, but her sense of place and history really appeals.
The more I learn, the more I love the idea of Fun Palaces - that idea of getting people together one weekend a year in a location that could be a library or a lido to create connections, to create community and to learn about art and science. Fun Palaces really encourages people to discover more about each other, about arts and science, and to make something from the ground up which can include everyone and benefit all. Surely this this what all GLAMR institutions should be aiming for - community creation, the ability for anyone and everyone to tell their story?
As an immigrant to New Zealand I'm also fascinated by Stella's idea of home / not home. I'll always be from the UK in a way I can never be from New Zealand. However went I went back to the UK things had moved on, or rather they were the same but different. I felt disconnected. I feel connected to New Zealand, although I've still much to learn, but I've been through some big wobbly shared experiences that have certainly attached me to Canterbury.
I'm hoping this will clear my head a bit.